I read a sentence this morning out of a book I often turn to when I’m questioning my “current status”. I know there are a few of you that can relate to this today…or maybe you did last week…or maybe you will tomorrow.
You’re not set aside, you’re set apart. Lisa TerKeurst.
I often find myself feeling alone; even when I’m not physically alone. It’s not a fun place to be. Being mentally alone is a recipe for disaster; and who likes the taste of that? Bitter and cold. There are times I don’t even know how to eliminate those feelings, and how to even prevent them. However, I know exactly who puts them there. Yep, him – the evil one always deserves the credit. (John 10:10).
I want to share with you something someone told me a few years ago that stuck with me. And I pray it speaks to you.
I didn’t know how much these words would impact me at the time, but they did, and have. And in a very big way…
A lady told me that, “God always equips the called.” I didn’t know at the time it was an actual bible reference of many scriptures. All I remember thinking when I heard it was, “why would God call someone to do something that doesn’t already have the skill to do it?” I couldn’t make sense of that theology.
A few years went by, and a few extraordinary events started happening in my life – and one was what I would call a miracle. God began to change me. He began to do something really weird in my heart – it was unpleasant and it hurt – but in a way that felt necessary. A good hurt.
The miracle began the very second I heard God speak. I’d never heard His voice before. The weirdest and most amazing part was, it was mine. Mine? See, I knew my own voice because I knew myself. I knew how I spoke, how I sounded, and the words I use, and the, “that sounds like something I would say”, kinda stuff. But His voice speaking through me was an automatic knowing that those particular words would never come out of my mouth…or even enter my thoughts. It was God! And no one will, or could, ever convince me otherwise.
At that moment, I was the most vulnerable I had ever been. Completely taken back by how my heart physically felt, and how I had thrown myself face down on the floor desperate for answers, literally. Humbled. And my heart changed again, in the very moment I heard His voice. It began to fill with grace and mercy, it didn’t hurt anymore. Real physical pain turned into real joy and peace. Fulfillment that healed and renewed. I’m not talking figuratively, I’m talking very real, physical change. My heart – once full of pain and bitterness and anger and regret – was drained and replaced with the blood of Jesus Christ!
A few months passed, and I met another amazing lady that became an godly mentor of mine. She asked me a few questions about leadership and I replied, “I don’t know, I don’t think I could do it.” Even though I knew God was calling me to do it. Doubt sat in. And she replied, “God doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called.”
At that very moment, I realized what God was doing. He is very intentional! And I was putty in His hands.
So, when I find myself lonely, uninvited, and doubting my path, I remember that truth. God is equipping me (and you) and tweaking me (and you) to become something bigger for Him. My failures and doubts are used for His grooming and blooming. I (we) am called to do something for Him and His good…and I will not allow Satan to distract me with petty and ridiculous garbage. And I won’t allow the silence, and the lack of support, to lead me into being a quitter. I am His. And I have lessons to learn, and stories to share.
The enemy wants us to feel rejected, left out, lonely, and less than.
As Matthew Mcconaughey would say, I’m gonna “keep on keepin’ on.” And I hope YOU do, too!
Praise You, Father, You are our true Leader! (2 Chronicles 13:12)