I’m going to assume there are not many of us that would take a leap of faith without at least counsel from someone we trust. Many of us, again assuming, probably don’t have the gumption to do anything challenging & fearful, alone. And once we do receive the feedback and advice, weighing the options and planning the steps, fail to follow through with the leap altogether. Why do we lean on others to weigh-in or decide whether to “take the plunge” or sit back down? Why do we need opinions and advice on big decisions from others? Or even small ones.
I write a lot. I’ve written 100’s of journal entries, devotions, “thoughts on paper”, and short stories. Only in a little over a year, my mind has been unfolding so many beautiful thoughts and revelations. Gifts. Some I’ve published, some I’ve kept private. And some I haven’t finished.
When I started writing I felt an overwhelming urge to share. Sharing my stories, testimonies, and bad choices in my life wasn’t a glamorous decision by any means. But all of that changed when Jesus became my Lord. I shared in obedience. See, I knew at that moment that I wasn’t alone. I realized I was only passing through this life. And what I leave here (in this world) can either impact people today, or maybe a great-granddaughter, or maybe some random stranger that God placed on my path. In any case, it’s not about me. The beautiful unfolding is, and has not been, about me.
Lately though, I’ve felt unsure about my writings. I feel the need to have them looked at, or proofed. I’m second-guessing my work, and reluctant to share what I’m being led. Why? Why, suddenly, am I feeling this way? Wait. Why am I letting my “feelings” even be involved? Feelings are God given emotions. But feelings aren’t always to be trusted. Feelings can change and are undependable. They can trap negativity and uncertainty. I’m not focusing on where my feelings should lead me, but instead, I’m trying to control and figure them out alone. And that can get me in big trouble.
But I am reminded lately that being a high-feeler isn’t always a bad thing. Giving my feelings over to the Holy Spirit, I’m given wisdom in my compassion and questioning. I’m given discernment in my intuition and uncertainties. I can fear God and sense His love in my loneliness and joys. I’m given His strength in my weakness, and in my weariness. My feelings should direct me to Him, His Word, and His Spirit! They work together. My self-doubt and insecurity, I find clarity in His Word and He brings me peace and purpose. His purpose! The Holy Spirit keeps my feelings on Him and His divine purpose.
I love these revelations. My feelings should always lead me to Him and His truths, not anyone else’s, and definitely not my own. My spirit seeking His Spirit will always give me peace in knowing exactly what “leap” I need to take. And if it’s not glorifying Him…sit back down, and listen.
Do not quench the Spirit. 1 Thessalonians 5:19
And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Helper, to be with you forever. John 14:16
Nevertheless, I tell you the truth: it is to your advantage that I go away, for if I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you. But if I go, I will send him to you. When he comes, he will prove the world to be in the wrong about sin and righteousness and judgment. John 16:7,8