Strength is Weakness

My title may sound like an oxymoron, and depending on how it’s interpreted, it may be. If I added a few more words to the title, it becomes 100% truth. But as I’m reading it, knowing where I’m going with this writing, it already is truth, 100%. My husband and I have a wedding anniversary […]

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My Helper

I’m going to assume there are not many of us that would take a leap of faith without at least counsel from someone we trust. Many of us, again assuming, probably don’t have the gumption to do anything challenging & fearful, alone. And once we do receive the feedback and advice, weighing the options and […]

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Learn to Listen

A few months ago I had some mystery words that were eating at me. Actually, they were nibbling more than eating. I know because they were a bit annoying and distracting and would disappear once I paid attention. I couldn’t put my finger on them. I thought I knew the words that were being caged […]

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Dear Jesus

Dear Jesus, It’s Your birthday! And today I celebrate You! Most of my days consist of learning more about You, Your character, Your story. But today, it’s all about what Your birth gave us; eternal life with You and Our Father. Hallelujah! You have always been there for me. Patiently waiting for me to “open” […]

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I hear You

It’s a busy time of year. And although it’s busy, we still have our daily routines and commitments we must also follow through with. We add more and more to our to-do lists. Joy and peace are the gifts highlighted during this season, but it’s our joy and peace that seem to be targeted. Why […]

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Smile!

I noticed something tonight while watching my favorite decorating show. Something that I probably have noticed before, but never really let affect me, or really even thought about. I was smiling. The couple on the episode were so precious. Humble, and shined with gratefulness when their home was presented to them after it had been […]

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I have…

Remembering the impact of my daily decisions isn’t always easy. Not just a particular decision, but all decisions that I face daily. Am I glorifying God? When words come out of my mouth, am I relying on the Holy Spirit? Am I listening? If I do something that I want to do, am I being […]

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Heaven

I’m thinking of Heaven this morning. Do you ever wonder what it is like? I do. When I see the beauty in God’s creation, I feel that I am experiencing glimpses of it. And the more I look, the more I see it. And the more apparent Heaven is all around us, constantly! As most […]

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Girl

I’m settling in after a 4-day trip with my mom, aunts and cousin to Louisiana. My heart is exploding with many emotions, however, one in particular is overpowering the others; gratitude. I am grateful. As our trip ended, I was anxious to be home to see my family. Being away from them is bitter-sweet. Yet, […]

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Come!

Sometimes I keep myself engaged in ‘overwhelming’ moments way too long. I don’t know why I do it, either. I know better, and I know how it affects me. So, why must I continue a behavior that I not only detest, but know causes unwanted stress and attitude? It frustrates me! Yes…stress, attitude, and frustration. […]

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Verbs of God

I’ve started paying specific attention to something recently in the Bible – verbs. And this week in the Bible study I attend, the worksheet notes also pointed out some of the grammar used in some verses. It’s fascinating! Literature uses verbs constantly, but when I started focusing on the verbs of God, it was miraculously […]

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A Woman of Worth

I’m so incredibly guilty of this that I am moved to write about it. I hope all my lady friends read this! It’s the holiday season, and as a woman I have: Christmas family pictures to plan, Christmas parties to attend, parties to plan, dresses to buy, gifts to purchase, food to make, a house […]

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My Will, or His?

I jotted a random thought down this morning. Sometimes I write thoughts down and wonder, “where did that come from?” No thinking involved, just my hand writing a collaboration of random words. Then I realize, it was for me. “Never let the judgments and opinions of others change the knowing of God’s purpose and plan […]

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Buckets

As I began packing for my week holiday at our cabin, I stood in my closet thinking of everything I needed to take with me. I paused in silence as I made an invisible checklist in my head. It was so quiet that I began to hear a consecutive, non-stop, ticking noise. A clock! I […]

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My 8

This season always stirs up deep emotions of thankfulness in me. I love how Fall makes me feel. I think there is a reason why Thanksgiving was/is celebrated this time of year; it just feels like perfect timing. Even though everything is dying, it reminds me of new life ahead. Like us! We are all […]

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His Love

I woke up this morning and had a realization that pained me. I woke up knowing I have hurt God. Not just from my past sins, but from one just yesterday. I’m not being a follower of Christ who is always loving. I’m not trying diligently enough with some people that God has placed in […]

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Shine Down on Me

As I walked passed a window today, I caught a glimpse of a ray of light that was fearlessly rushing towards Earth. Nothing in the way to stop its shine. Several thoughts ran through my mind, but the one that struck me the most was, “let Your light shine down”. Nothing can stop Your wonders. […]

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Peaches

This one is for the young girls. The girls that want attention. The girls that feel more validated by every “like” and comment they receive. The girls that are trying to measure up to the others. The girls that purposely show their assets in pictures, just at the right angel; to cause interest and mystery. […]

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Equipped & Called

I read a sentence this morning out of a book I often turn to when I’m questioning my “current status”. I know there are a few of you that can relate to this today…or maybe you did last week…or maybe you will tomorrow. You’re not set aside, you’re set apart. Lisa TerKeurst. I often find […]

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Morning Joy

Joy! It’s a word that immediately fills my heart with God’s love, mercy, and grace, when I read it. His grace encompasses me and protects me. It’s a word that is powerful, yet gentle. It’s an emotion that is promised to us every morning…as sure as the sun rises! No matter what spirit-stealing lows we’ve […]

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A Sun and Shield

I love these verses… 11. For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless. 12. LORD Almighty, blessed is the one who trusts in you. So much of God’s awesome character expressed in just 2 sentences; power, […]

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My Hope Car

This week I’ve been studying the first 11 verses of Romans 5. It’s a meat and potatoes lesson, rich with protein and carbs; – declared righteous by faith, – God’s peace, – reconciliation with God through Jesus’ death, – God’s love poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, – our suffering produces perseverance and […]

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Stand Up!

Interesting where God led me today… Have you ever been in a situation where standing-up for something you believe in has left you sitting, instead? Backing down from an argument, not because you believe the other to be right, but rather because you had fear of what would happen if you stood? Diverting an argument, […]

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Put Me in Coach!

I believe many of us played games on the playground when we were in elementary school. Two teams, which meant 2 leaders, would choose their teammates out of a group of friends and random kids. You knew you were either well-liked, or played the game well, if you were chosen early. But if you didn’t […]

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File 13

There are days that I can really get hung-up on my past failures. “If only’s”, “what if’s”, “why did I or didn’t I’s”. Hang-ups that can quickly spiral emotions and thoughts downward into a bottomless black pit. Packing despair, regret, shame and guilt, all in a bag along with me. Dark & heavy baggage! Those […]

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Get Out of the Boat!

I scrolled past this picture this morning and it reminded me of a 10yo girl I once knew. Me. Growing up my mom was the Campfire leader for my grade and every year we would go to a Summer camp about an hour from our hometown. Archery, canoeing, nature walking…it was a great time in […]

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להקשיב

Listening is something I’m either great at, or really bad at. I have a self-diagnosed condition called “shiny object syndrome”. I’m the best listener when I focus, but once something grabs my attention…forget it. And I can’t listen, and process, while distractions are begging for my attention. I try, but I lose, every time. God […]

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Afire

AFIRE:  on fire; blazing: full of excitement and energy. The word afire and its definition perfectly signifies my love for Jesus Christ.  It is a word that when I first read it, I felt encompassed with how relational it was to what I am feeling inside. Inside my heart.  Inside my soul. I chose this […]

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Cleaned & Paid

Like all mornings, I wake up earlier than I want.  I either lay in bed for a while fighting restlessness, or I give in and start my day.  This morning was a bit chilly so, I decided to remain cozy and warm until I gave into the urge to put my feet on the ground. […]

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I know?

I know what is best for myself. I know right from wrong. I know my goals and plans for the future. I know…I know…I know. But do I? Do I know what is best for myself? Do I know right from wrong? Are my goals and plans, the future? For I know the plans I […]

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Light Dimmer

My husband and I have gone out on dates many times to eat at some amazing restaurants. That’s one thing we both love; food. Trying new places and dishes is something we both look forward to. I remember a few times where the light in the room got a tad darker – quickly my eyes […]

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To-do Lists

The word obedience has always been a word I’ve cringed at the sound of. I don’t know if it’s the word itself, or if it’s the idea of the word; hard, challenging, and authoritative. In either case, I’ve realized that obedience isn’t exactly what I thought it was. I only thought I knew about 1/4 […]

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Trails

Yesterday was a blessed day. I walked a few trails around our 250 acres in constant awe of God’s creation. In everything that I passed, stepped on; everything that flew by me, I heard, I smelled, I felt…I could see His works. I could see His love. Sometimes when I walk those trails I am […]

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When Light Overcomes.

I don’t know about you, but there have been times in my life that I hadn’t a clue on what direction to take, what decision to make, what my next move was to be, or supposed to be. I remember times that I was so confused by the mess going on around me, that faking […]

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In a hurry to bury.

This morning, as I left for my day, I was driving along the highway and noticed a car pulling out a few cars ahead of me. With all the heavy traffic, he decided to turn onto the shoulder, gun it, and eventually force his way in. Just by the way the others around him drove, […]

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Be still, little girl.

All that knew me as a little girl, probably remember my energy, lack of focus, and impatience of the anticipation of the next activity BEFORE starting the present one. My mom would play a game of “let’s see how many times you can run around the house”. Ha! I would be running before even saying […]

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Love, Believe, Live

We must be the people of God who, rather than being defined only by what we are against, are also defined by what we are for. So many amazing truths in the book Good Faith by David Kinnaman & Gabe Lyons. Chapter 5 is my focus in this blog. Love – Good faith starts with […]

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(*this one could be a bit convicting today, warning. But this where the Holy Spirit led me).

I’ve carried a piece of red construction paper in my wallet for years. Cade made it at VBS one summer, probably 8-9 years ago. When I had my office built the beginning of this year, I took it out and hung it up because I finally had a place to actually put it. Now I get to see and read it daily. :). His sweet 7-8yo hand writing…

“Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your strength.” – Mark 12:30. <

Bore my relationship with Jesus began last year, I knew quite a bit about who Jesus was – an emphasis on the word “was” – Son of God, died on the cross, paid for my sins. Almost 2,000 years ago, a man was nailed to a cross by 3 nails, claiming to be the messiah. Heard the stories when I was a child, and grew up learning most of the colorful stories of the Bible. The ark was my favorite – probably because I think rainbows are pretty and I love animals! Again, I was baptized at 12, again at 42…saved? Doubtful.

And this is where I can’t seem to get my words going. How does a person write about love? When does the word “love” written down, express “love” itself? Hmmm…

Did you know that every single bad thought that comes into your mind is a sin against God? Did you know that even thinking of a bad word, without even saying it, is a sin? We are doomed, right? Not exactly. A sin is a sin. Your itty bitty sins are just as evil as murder in the eyes of God. He can’t look at any of it!

I’ve been learning a lot about righteousness, and justification, and redemption, and sanctification, and “apart from the law”, this week. Heavy stuff! I’ve also learned a new word, antinomianism – living a life full of sin without the regard of the righteousness of God. Basically, in my own definition, “who cares, I’m going out and getting drunk tonight, Jesus paid for my sins!” Disturbed? Yes, Jesus did pay for our sins. Freed by grace? Yes, freed by grace! (IF you’re saved) Hallelujah!  But a heart changed through salvation will be disgusted by even the thought of living with that mentality. You are a new creation through Christ. Sin should disgust you! It should repulse you! Why? Because it repulses God. And when you are changed and saved through Jesus Christ, you become more like Him. Let me repeat that – when you are changed and saved through Jesus Christ, you become more like Him! If you are not becoming more like Him – you should really question your relationship with Jesus Christ.

As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead. James 2:26

There are absolutely no judgments being made in this blog. Trust me, I, myself, am extremely sinful. Does it bother me that I am this way, yes. I absolutely hate it. Actually, this “disease” causes more pain, heartache, heart issues and problems and struggles than any other “disease” we deal with. It’s worse than cancer! We can’t pop a pill for it. Even reading our Bibles can’t cure it. ONLY Jesus can. Jesus DID! And that’s when everything should start clicking….and why, regardless that sin is incurable, we should want to continue to try. We should slow it’s progression, just like any other disease. You don’t just throw your hands in the air when you get diagnosed with a disease…or stop loving your life, or the people in it, when you know you’re going to die. Why would you stop loving, and stop smiling, and stop caring, and stop being kind, and stop helping others, and not telling the world where you are going when your heart finally stops? Eternal life!

So LOVE the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength! Don’t have an antinomian heart.  An antinomian heart is a broken heart.

Do we, then, nullify the law by this faith? Not at all! Rather, we uphold the law.  Romans 3:31

“I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father but through Me.” John 14:6.

Pick Up Your Sword!

I woke up at 5 this morning. Like most mornings, it’s not unusual for me to lay in bed around this time and begin my morning prayer. Reflection, thankfulness, healing, praising, searching my heart. This morning I thought about moments when the kids were little. They were so cute. I mean, CA-UTE! They both have […]

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Arms

This has already started out being a weird post, just the title itself; but bear with me.  I woke up this morning, earlier than I needed to, and headed to do my usual morning mundane chores, if you will.  Letting out the dogs, feeding them, making coffee, took out some trash, started some laundry, etc. […]

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Mirror, mirror.

Oh, mirror, mirror, I never know what you are going to say…. These past few weeks have been very convicting.  Our bible study group has been studying the book of Romans, and the first 3 chapters have left me overwhelmed; both with remorse, and rejoice.  I have had to reach into the pits of my […]

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Psalm 91:4

This past weekend was exhausting.  So much going on, so much celebration (minus the Sooner loss to ISU) that, I’m left with very little wind in my lungs.  It’s only Monday, and I have little left in me, at all. But, may I just say…it was the most gorgeous weekend, wasn’t it??  Wow! I read […]

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Noisemakers

There may be nothing more peace-less than oil fracking. A few months ago, oil/gas drillers began to drill behind our house. Apparently it was a hot spot. Trucks in and out, “Friday night lights” lit up every night, and the noise! Ugh! It went on for, what seemed, weeks! We couldn’t even be outside; and […]

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Pay Attention or Pay More

I woke up this morning a little beat down, feeling deflated and a little bummed. And honestly, I had zero reason! I had self-doubt that was beginning to simmer in my mind…in my heart. I can always be brought back to reality when I’m reading God’s Word. Not only did scripture help me today, but […]

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